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Free 12-Step Memoir & Practical Guide

A Contract With The Universe

From Utter Chaos to 35 Years Clean — By Mark Jordan

“If someone as fucked up as I was can find a way out, pretty much anyone can.”

From childhood trauma, training school, Borstal, prison, and twenty years of chronic alcohol and drug addiction in conflict-torn Northern Ireland—even while running a drugs recovery charity behind a secret double life—to thirty-five years of lasting peace, sanity, and real love. Download the complete 65,000-word book free below, and pass it on to anyone who needs it.

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35 Years Clean
Alcohol & drug free in 12-Step recovery
6,000+ Meetings
70,000+ fellowship shares distilled into plain English
65,000 Words
Unabridged memoir & step-by-step companion
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Inside the Book

Two Halves: The Depth of the Problem & A Pragmatic Blueprint Out

Written with zero pious sermons and zero self-help clichés—welcoming readers grounded in a loving, traditional faith just as warmly as sceptics, agnostics, and newcomers finding their spiritual footing.

Part One • Chapters 1–5

The Damage

An unflinching journey through how early shame, childhood trauma, fear, and self-will build the cage of addiction—and proof that no matter how dark your secrets feel, you are not beyond reach.

  • Growing up in Bangor, juvenile institutions, Millisle Borstal & the H-Blocks
  • Street survival, paramilitary encounters & the illusion of tough-guy armour
  • High-functioning denial: running a drugs charity while falling apart inside
  • The rainy Belfast phone box surrender outside Shaftesbury Square Hospital
Part Two • Chapters 6–17 & Toolkit

The Solution — Signing the Contract

A grounded, step-by-step walkthrough of all Twelve Steps meant to be worked inside a fellowship with a sponsor—replacing destructive self-will with the daily, practical decision of Real Love.

  • Steps 1–3: Firing the General Manager & signing a daily contract with love
  • Steps 4–5: Taking off the masks, claiming assets & killing shame in the daylight
  • Steps 6–9: Dropping old survival rackets & making clean, living amends
  • Steps 10–12 & Appendix: Real-time spot-checks & The Daily Contract Toolkit

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Mark Jordan — Author of A Contract With The Universe
About the Author

Mark Jordan

Author • Former Drugs Recovery Charity Coordinator • 35 Years Clean

Born near Belfast in 1960, Mark Jordan survived twenty years of childhood trauma, training school, Borstal, prison, homelessness, and chronic alcoholism and drug addiction before walking into a Twelve-Step room at thirty-one. He has been clean and sober ever since.

Alongside coordinating a frontline Belfast drugs rehabilitation charity for eight years, Mark is an award-winning writer and an alumnus of Oxford University’s creative writing tutorial programme who has won two separate £10,000 script development awards from Northern Ireland Screen.

Mark wrote A Contract With The Universe with a two-year goal of giving away 100,000 free copies worldwide while funding clean-water well projects in developing communities as part of his ongoing living amends. He lives peacefully in Belfast with his young children.

Oxford Writing Programme Alumnus 2× NI Screen Script Award Winner 8 Years Charity Coordinator Belfast, Northern Ireland

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